Hello, Again!

Finally, I'm back after a very long hiatus.

Welcome 2017.

I'm going to keep this blog as a platform for me to mumble and rumble everything in life.

Cheers.

Azxo

Inside

It's been a long time eh.

Well, hope everyone is good. All is well. Definitely survive the survival.

No intend to talk long, add up the craps to the limits.

Stay- by Rihanna and Mikky Ekko always fine to stir emotions, touch my soul and sunk my feeling.

To good to be true eh..
I want you to stay.

This is definitely an endless story. I will write about no-such-forever-term soon. If only I found the courage to do so.

Taken on year 2012, at FRIM Kepong. 
Time goes by, best memories remain.

Till then, be good and be safe everyone.

I think I'm getting older each day. And yes, this is cliche!

Kekewkwkwkwkwk.

Perfume

Ohh la la Britney!

I have to admit that your new song called Perfume really take my breath away.

It was so meaningful to me, deep and yeah, who cares right?

I should just splash my perfume so you know that I am there !

Haha.

Enjoy the song, and let's sing along!

Perfume Lyrics

Do I imagine it, or do I see your stare?
Is there still longing there?
Oh I hate myself, and I feel crazy
Such a classic tale

Current girlfriend, ex-girlfriend, I’m trying to be cool
Am I being paranoid? Am I seeing things? Am I just insecure?

I want to believe
It’s just you and me
Sometimes it feels like there’s three of us in here, baby

So I wait for you to call
And I try to act natural
Have you been thinking ’bout her or about me?
And while I wait I put on my perfume,
Yeah, I want it all over you
I'm gonna mark my territory

I’ll never tell, tell on myself but I hope she smells my perfume
I’ll never tell, tell on myself but I hope she smells my perfume
I hide it well, hope you can’t tell but I hope she smells my perfume
I hide it well, hope you can’t tell but I hope she smells my perfume

I wanna fill the room when she’s in it with you
Please don’t forget me
Do I imagine it, or catch these moments?
I know you got history

But I’m your girlfriend, now I’m your girlfriend trying to be cool
I hope I’m paranoid, that I’m just seeing things, that I’m just insecure

I want to believe
It’s just you and me
Sometimes it feels like there’s three of us in here, baby

So I, wait for you to call
And I try to act natural
Have you been thinking ’bout her or about me?
And while I wait I put on my perfume,
Yeah, I want it all over you
I'm gonna mark my territory

So I, wait for you to call
And I try to act natural
Have you been thinking ’bout her or about me?
And while I wait I put on my perfume,
Yeah, I want it all over you
I'm gonna mark my territory

I’ll never tell, tell on myself but I hope she smells my perfume
I’ll never tell, tell on myself but I hope she smells my perfume
I hide it well, hope you can’t tell but I hope she smells my perfume
I hide it well, hope you can’t tell but I hope she smells my perfume

Say Something I'm Giving Up On You

Christina Aguilera, such a big name in Hollywood music industries. And just recently she made such a beautiful collaboration with A Great Big World  with ; Say Something. 

Such melodic, harmonic and deep song.

Gosh, when I'm about n to want to release myself from a relationship sure I will sing this song with non stop tears. (cheeeeh.. Keke)

The lyrics:
                                                            "Say Something"

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'll be the one, if you want me to.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I will swallow my pride.
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
And anywhere I would've followed you. Oh-oh-oh-oh
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Say something...

The video:

Deep.. Feel like hibernating myself in an isolated island, which only me and the trees, ocean and seas. 

 

... and yeah not to forget my note. (grin) :D

A New Year

Hello peeps!
How's life been catching you? Yeay, its 2014 and we are one step ahead from what we are yesterday. :)
Not to say the age (which most people called; just a number) everything and every time seem flies real fast.

I don't know if some people still browse along my page, but nevermind let me just express up my mind, the feeling and everything here.
Well this call a therapy.

Different face, I met here, new life, new job scope and everything is just so strange.
Nonetheless, as always I don't like to complicate things or 'think too much' as experience grows me better. At the very least, I have learned that over-thinking and exaggerates thought won't lead you anywhere.

:) Keke.

I am grateful with my current life, working as a teacher it's still long way to go. A lots of dream to be achieve. Ups and downs  path of life going to hurdle us. Even though reside in such outskirt place with strange people and anonymous, I just have to think positively in every move I walk, every act I acted, every words i spoke and just everything. Well stuff like this might be invisible but this is what shape our life.

Recently, I saw somewhere (can't recall where) a brilliant quotes like this:

The intelligence of a person shown at words he said when he's in rage (angry).

very well thoughts, indeed!

Of love live and matrimony, I let the Almighty do His work. 

Of course everyone can't run from dreaming and anticipating. Well... nothing more i can say.

:)

Anyway, wishing anyone (that might accidentally jump here) a happy 2014 year.

Look at the brightside and the sun shine will lead your way.

June, 2013. Miss the memories. PJ.

Floria Putrajaya, 2013

Cheerful and revive me. Wangsa Walk, 2013

Till then. Spread the loves!

Wrecking Ball

Hi lovelies.

Talking about wrecking ball, it is very obvious that oh-la-la Miley has succeed to make me become one of her fans. Oppssss! Typo. I mean fan for this song.

Oh well, as time goes by, I always feel like I'm freaking, wrecking, stumbling, falling deep down to the undoubtedly scary hole which no one can save me. Really, I am really falling.

I am run out of idea now, don't feel like talking, so let me just post the lyrics of this song.
Current eargasm*.

 "Wrecking Ball"

We clawed, we chained our hearts in vain
We jumped never asking why
We kissed, I fell under your spell.
A love no one could deny

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

I put you high up in the sky
And now, you're not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we're ashes on the ground

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you
I can't live a lie, running for my life
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
And instead of using force
I guess I should've let you win
I never meant to start a war
I just wanted you to let me in
I guess I should've let you win

Don't you ever say I just walked away
I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me.

Who Do You Trust?

Trust can be difficult but essential in life. 

To trust is to rely on the integrity or ability of a person or thing. 

We place trust in others , knowing that they can be relied on, despite us having been let down before.

Trusting can be difficult but a life without trust is surely an empty one.

Thus, here I want to ask you a question. Who do you trust the most?


a. Yourself

b. Parents

c. Sisters/ Brothers

d. Friends

e. Spouse

f. Pets

g. Social networking


Sometimes, it is hard to earn trust from someone. Be it your close relatives, spouse or whomever that you might think close to you.

It is never easy as it seems.

some says, we are not suppose to give our trust for whole to someone. and yeah, no object for that!

warrrggghhh... never trust what you see.

The Fear.

Cause all this while, I've been taken over by the fear. For we are human,  always do.

We're in a safer place, we feel comfortable.

But once the world changes, just push out the fear and move on.

p/s: f**k you very very much!

Waking up.

Waking up in the morning when you feel like everything is oh so well and you are helplessly energetic. You decided to ignore everything 'fake and lies' revolving around you and wake up with enthusiastic smile.

...and that is the best thing to do when you know the world has not come to its end.

 Once upon a time,  in a crowd, fast forward life.

I've found love and  experience the life.

Somehow, sometimes,  it does makes me feel alive!

Kelana Jaya, June, 2013

Hi, Today. Hello, Tomorrow!

Hi today and hello tomorrow!

It sounds cliche eh? Ehmm.. guess so. Well that's the only best title I can think for now as its been quite sometimes when I stop appearing myself in the world of blogging, world of social networking and not to mention the Facebook-ing, twitter-ing and uh-la-la Insta here and there! 

It just not my style ya-all! :p 

I'm just a little grown girl, which nobody to the world but somebody to certain people around me.

Hihi..

Uh-ah-uh-ah.. it feels good to get to type back here when I was/were abandoning this for like a year? Yet, why I do this again due to few reasons:

First, well you know now I am a teacher. A real-teacher; which I shall say 'starting the real job of mine'. Hihi. Its a bless thing to do but somehow sadly enough when I've been threw away to quite isolated place; name Daro in Sarawak.

Uh-la-la.. What you expect me to do? Wakeup-eat-work-eat-sleep every day, baby. Ohmyfreakinglamelife! 

It's like the same daily routine everyday.

err...grrr..

After talking with a friend, he recommend me to find a hobby. Gain and create a new hobby. And here I come... come back to the 'past attitude' of mine.  Hopefully I can be more enthusiast and consistent in a time being.

and the second reason is... When I find out that quite 'special someone' to me has 'Googling' about the existence of  my blog on his phone. Ohmysweettoothy!#$%  Hahahaha.. =))

Is there anything sweeter that you could do for me rather than that?

or you just miss to checking on what I feel, whatI'm doing and all that.

HahahHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA...

anyway, this is just a start. The begin again.

I wish there is more to come. 

Till then. 

Look forward but don't reckless to -NOT- hear what follows you on your back.

You never know you'll die until you died.

During my convocation day.

Putrajaya, May 28th, 2013.

Bloom Again

Hi all.

It's been along hiatus for me to get back writing here, expressing the unstoppable feeling and everything.

Tell you what, there is a lot, lots thing was / is happening with me, around me and wrap me on this past few months.

Oh well, I shouldn't have to explain it all anyway.

Anyway, just a short express thought, enough to release the feeling.

Once you wide open your window, you got to see the world. Wake up and embrace. Embrace everything. 

Be dare. In the end of the day, you only have you and your shadow.

much love, 

xoxo.

Hope everyone is in good and positive life. May all be blessed. ameen.

When you were my man.

my heart beats fast when I think of you.


this is not real, it just fantasy.

love your mr bruno. You really know how to make women feel like she's worth it!

Who Knew?

I won't forget you my friend,
What happened?

The last kiss,
I'll cherish until we meet again
When times then, gets harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memories
You will be still in my sleep.


My darling,
Who knew?

all of above is YESTERDAY.

Hi, hi people.


Happy March, happy working and happy surviving!

Let's us be grateful and appreciates our life as  we never know when this ni'mat will disappear and dissolve from our sight.
Keke,


Life ain't promise anything to us. never. Everyday you wake up, open your eyes, get up and doing the same daily routine. It could sickening you sometimes, but yet you still have to do it. That oh-same -daily -routine.
Only two reasons possible:

i.  You think you  have no options - which you have to do it, either way you're lost and stranded ; left with nothing.
ii. You're lazy, procrastinating and lazier ; like me. [HAHA]

As times goes by, things seems so usual for me. I no longer that vulnerable like I used to do on my younger days; crying when no one sees, holding myself back, pressuring myself because of me and all those -- self accusing -- attitude which is bad. After all, life must go on.

And hell yeah, I'm less fortunate for not getting place for INTERIM posting and so on, it is hard to swallow to see all of your 5 years and half friends going to posting, teaching and yeah become a teacher. Well, even though this is not what you want, but at least  you have study and train for this in such a long period time.

Yet, my mother said: Sabar la nak,bukan rezeki mu lagi. Inshaallah ada hikmah juga tu.

It is tough, at first. Now I learn and try to be redha.

Secondly, I also have quit my job. Yes, this sounds not a very good idea for a jobless person like me. [HMM..HMM]. But then again the situation is just not so safe and yet to deal with such KIASU colleague, so I better move. After all, this is just temporary, at the first place.

Hopefully, will got a better future soon, InshaAllah.

BYE YESTERDAY!

HELLO TODAY.

As quotes from Leighton Mesteer (Blair Waldrof); 

"The only person pressuring me is myself."

okay then people, just be good and take care everyone.

Love everyone that acres for you and you will be in love. :)

Let's enjoy, I know YouWere Trouble by Taylor;

Ciao.

Honest Goodbye

Hello hi, hey allo!


How have u been doing earthlings?

It's up and down life with me here. Nothing is fine nor sucks it just so so. And in this post I'd love to share my current favorite song by Bic, which is nice, fine and mellow; very well to explain my feeling and situation at this moment.

Sink with the tide, rescue me if you like,
I''ll be leaving it all up to you..
Think how we tried,
It's OK to be lied to
As long as its only by you..
People say to me, its best that we've parted
'Cause you know I'm better alone.

Hell, is what you get.

Ok, when you look my way I"m gonna gives you hell.

OK, bai!

Begin Again

OH, hello - hi!

Year 2012 has left us behind with thousands one stories to remind, rely and not to resign.

I hope everyone have had a great year of 2013 so far. It is never too late for us to made a resolution and action for it, also determination on how to create a better life, at least for ourselves.

I am wrapped with invisible, non existence phenomena from my friends, college mates and anyone that I used to know all this while. Ever since, finishing my five years and half of hardship pursuing my degree, Keke, now here I am stay still, lay -left and right-, eat mouth fully  being a jobless person.

Haha, yes jobless person. =O.O=

I know this is not supposed to concern me that much since at least for now I have something to do, eh? Nevertheless, to begin again with a new  post after a long long hiatus period, I helplessly feel like want to expressing this. Yeah this. Just like few hundred friends of PISMP Jan 2009 Intakes felt. Grgr.

Never mind bout it. I feel better now. :D

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Oh well, I think I shouldn't right much for the new beginning. Just remember to KISS*. ;)

Shoot The Moon,

                           Norah Jones

Hello 2013!

Come back future

Verdant.

Hi hi, everyone. It is 7th of November 2012 and alhamdulillah, I am still surviving and catch a breath in this earthy earth belong to the Almighty.

Plus, I am still surround by everyone I love and care a lot. Especially toi.

Btw, today post gonna be a half-wordless Wednesday, with the feeling of un jardin apres la mousson. It is verdant. The grass smell, the aroma, the feeling, such a bless.
I always love it whenever I wrapped up in nature.

Okay, cut the crap. Let's enjoy the picture and breath.

The someone. You already did much joy, bless and best in you to me. Everytime is just so wonderful. And I am wonderstruck.

I will be.

In a middle of the night, I lay down and breath, say a little prayer for you.. and me.
It is sincere, pure and honest.
As to keep this life much more meaningful to the fullest.

Don't judge a person by her cover. Touch her heart, and it will reveal everything.

Be safe and take care everyone. XO's